Today is the day! Today is the time I've hoped would happen or thought would NEVER happen and have actually thought about for years now. But mainly for the last year it's been something I thought might actually be possible.
Today I fly out to Washington's SEATAC Airport and get picked up by my BOYFRIEND Mike! We drive back home and snuggle together and then early in the morning we hop in the rented moving truck that is towing his Honda Accord as we drive half way (or so it seems) across the country (actually only through like 5 states or so) for a full day drive time (actually this one's close to true it's between 19-24 hours) to be spread out between tomorrow and Monday!!! I'm bringing my man home. He's got a new home and a new job and he starts on Wednesday. It's REAL!!!
It's no joke It's not JUST a dream. Yes I'm nervous! YES I'm excited. It's like it's too good to be true!
No! Seriously it does. They saying I'm "waiting for the other shoe to drop" is like the closest I can find to how I'm thinking. I don't recall the "first shoe" dropping but you know it's like something is too good or too wonderful. He's not Psycho, He's sweet He's funny and he's willing to leave his home for ME? ME? Hmmm~ And when I met him almost 3 years ago from online chat and then phone conversations he was not single & he lived out of state (which I said I'd NEVER DO again when it came to dating) so between those two it wasn't an option. He's hot as far as I'm concerned and he's hilarious. He said he wasn't happy in his relationship and I told him that's fine then get out of it on your own terms. (Which I thought he'd never do but I wouldn't admit I even liked him back until he was single and I wasn't going to hold it over his head I just stayed his friend)
Anyway My point is - through lots of crazy circumstances - we've gotten to today - the day we begin our life together. After living so far apart and being on the phone CONSTANTLY - flying multiple times back and forth and meeting family and friends and friends who ARE family we'll be together.
I feel guilty. I honestly should feel guilty for being part of the situation when he broke up with his ex. However his ex let me have it! He wrote this message to me on my Myspace page letting me know exactly what he thought of me! He slammed my parental ability and said I had a small penis (hahahah I loved that part) So he got to say what he wanted and I left it alone so I don't feel guilty about being a "home wrecker" anymore.
I do feel guilt over being the reason he's leaving his family and his friends! He's got this huge network of people who he's so close with! Friends he's grown up with! Family he's loved and hated but no matter what they've always been very close by when he needed them there. He's leaving them behind for me. for US! It's so romantical! (As Chi chi would say!)
So anyway I've lost sleep and had wretched dreams about this not working well. Or thinking I'll die on the plane or the plane will crash on my way out there. WTF?
OK this is more than enough rambling... can you tell I'm excited? He says I'm like a puppy! I think he's right! Wish me luck!
Today I fly out to Washington's SEATAC Airport and get picked up by my BOYFRIEND Mike! We drive back home and snuggle together and then early in the morning we hop in the rented moving truck that is towing his Honda Accord as we drive half way (or so it seems) across the country (actually only through like 5 states or so) for a full day drive time (actually this one's close to true it's between 19-24 hours) to be spread out between tomorrow and Monday!!! I'm bringing my man home. He's got a new home and a new job and he starts on Wednesday. It's REAL!!!
It's no joke It's not JUST a dream. Yes I'm nervous! YES I'm excited. It's like it's too good to be true!
No! Seriously it does. They saying I'm "waiting for the other shoe to drop" is like the closest I can find to how I'm thinking. I don't recall the "first shoe" dropping but you know it's like something is too good or too wonderful. He's not Psycho, He's sweet He's funny and he's willing to leave his home for ME? ME? Hmmm~ And when I met him almost 3 years ago from online chat and then phone conversations he was not single & he lived out of state (which I said I'd NEVER DO again when it came to dating) so between those two it wasn't an option. He's hot as far as I'm concerned and he's hilarious. He said he wasn't happy in his relationship and I told him that's fine then get out of it on your own terms. (Which I thought he'd never do but I wouldn't admit I even liked him back until he was single and I wasn't going to hold it over his head I just stayed his friend)
Anyway My point is - through lots of crazy circumstances - we've gotten to today - the day we begin our life together. After living so far apart and being on the phone CONSTANTLY - flying multiple times back and forth and meeting family and friends and friends who ARE family we'll be together.
I feel guilty. I honestly should feel guilty for being part of the situation when he broke up with his ex. However his ex let me have it! He wrote this message to me on my Myspace page letting me know exactly what he thought of me! He slammed my parental ability and said I had a small penis (hahahah I loved that part) So he got to say what he wanted and I left it alone so I don't feel guilty about being a "home wrecker" anymore.
I do feel guilt over being the reason he's leaving his family and his friends! He's got this huge network of people who he's so close with! Friends he's grown up with! Family he's loved and hated but no matter what they've always been very close by when he needed them there. He's leaving them behind for me. for US! It's so romantical! (As Chi chi would say!)
So anyway I've lost sleep and had wretched dreams about this not working well. Or thinking I'll die on the plane or the plane will crash on my way out there. WTF?
OK this is more than enough rambling... can you tell I'm excited? He says I'm like a puppy! I think he's right! Wish me luck!
5 comments:
I am really HAPPY FOR YOU, YOU Deserve to be happy and this is not a dream, this is reality and your dreams are coming true. Every time we talk about the situation or Mike, you can hear it in your voice that you are really happy, so do not beat yourself up, there is nothing to beat yourself up for. If Mike is close to his family and friends, he will always remain close to them, distance is nothing but a road trip or air fare. So get Nurse Griselda and gussied up and enjoy it.... and you said, and I quote
"I wouldn't admit I even liked him back until he was single and I wasn't going to hold it over his head I just stayed his friend"
and
"He said he wasn't happy in his relationship "
So no need to use home wrecker, you are no such thing. So cheers, be safe, have fun, and dont do everything that I would do.. LOL
YAY! Exciting much? I can understand your nerves, this must just be too good to be true! You must share a little bit more about Mike with us, for those who aren't up to date on the whole thing!
Meanwhile I'm just gonna dance around here for a while think about you two crazy kids, so happy and in love! It warms my heart.
I love a good love story :o)
SC
Good for you! Who cares what people say! Granted, being a 'homewrecker' is never good on the resume,lol, but you two are still together, so... =]! Came across your page by accident while surfing, lol, and I too type with too many exclamation points!! (& sumtimes too many smileys=], haha!!) HOWEVER! I say "If you're excitable and you know it, type with points!!" haha. =] Have a great day, eh?!! =]!!
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